And in the end ...

"And in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make" they say.

This was said to me, I believe, to be a comfort, and maybe it's true that, for all the love I felt, just as much was felt in return.

But, that only increases my sense of loss -- as though it were wished of me, and came true: "Ojalá que te mueras que todo tu mundo se quede vacio" -- even though, I know that it is "for myself that I cry".